Tuesday, November 8, 2016

I Talked to God at Starbucks

Sunday afternoon, in a deserted downtown that wasn’t mine, God leaned out of a Starbucks window to smile at me and assure me that everything was going to be ok.

For decades my mother has been collecting holiday decorations of every kind. As the seasons change so does the décor of my parents’ home. There is quite the organizational system of boxes and timing to make sure everything is displayed appropriately for each festivity.

Every season is sweet. Although there is a lot, nothing is overdone, and each piece is lovingly displayed to bring the viewer joy. Each holiday is made special and the house presents itself as an open invitation to celebrate with family and friends.

Halloween has its own special place. When Nannie and Poppa became grandparents, their friends, the other grandparents, suggested a special gathering of grandchildren at my parents’ home for Halloween. They wanted their grandchildren to see Nannie’s wonderful display of ghosties, pumpkins, witches, bats and spiders, too. Delighted to entertain, Nannie’s Trick or Treat was born.

It is a charming afternoon of sweet treats around the kitchen table, oohs and ahs over the decorations adorning every flat service and available hook, a yard full of inflatable cats and pumpkins, crafts around my father’s childhood bunny table, the great leaf pile, trees to climb, a piñata and treasure hunt. The big moment is when the children line up for the costume parade and early trick or treat at neighbors’ homes. It is lovely, good fun for all.

It was after this wonderful afternoon with my parents, my children and my beloved extra parents (our family friends) and their grandchildren that I drove into that line at Starbuck’s to get the pumpkin spice latte I knew I would need to get me the two and a half hours home.

The children were already settled into their video in the back seat when I placed my order. As I waited in line, I prayed.

God, please help us get back home safely. I know I’m tired, but I know I’ve got this with your help. It’s been a big weekend, and I’m so thankful for the many memories you helped us create today and yesterday. Please help us down the road.

It was finally my turn at the window. I had prayed, but I was still feeling anxious. The woman at the window handed me my latte, but then something was different. She leaned forward making direct eye contact with me, which I actually had to catch because I was moving on to my cup holder. She smiled the most radiant smile at me and clearly spoke to me, “I hope you have a great afternoon.”

I smiled back and said, “Thank you, you, too.” But she wasn’t done with me. She kept her eye contact until she was sure I knew she meant it. I did a double take, and smiled back at her, for real. There was a recognition from both of us and suddenly I thought to myself, “Well, hi, God, yes, thank you. I will have a good afternoon on the road.” I practically giggled as I drove a way, and I could see from the corner of my eye that she was still smiling as she turned from the window.

It was definitely a Carrie Underwood “Jesus Take the Wheel” kind of drive home, but I will forever be thankful for God’s message of love and comfort to me at Starbuck’s before I hit the road.

Dear God, Thank you for loving me and inspiring that beautiful Starbuck’s lady to lean forward just when I needed her to help me. I hope that I can be that love and light when someone needs it the most, too. Let us all be reminders to one another that we are never alone and that in that Oneness is great strength, guidance and love.


With love and light,
LT

Thursday, November 3, 2016

Sticks and Stones

“Mommy,” she said to me, “’Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me’ is a lie.”

I paused. I looked up at her slowly, knowingly.

I said, “You’re right, Sweetpea. It is a lie, but it’s meant to try and make us feel better when they do.”

Eyes locked on mine, she nodded, and we went back to reading “A Secret Garden.”


Oh those words, those many painful words. How many have you endured? How many have you uttered?

Just today I struggled with a response to an email. Feeling justified in my response to what I thought was an unruly request, I typed with vigor. Breaking my father’s wise rule to wait a day before sending an emotionally laden written response, I at least paused and took out the snarky sentences that were hidden between the thoughtful ones. I pressed send feeling rather pleased with myself.

Alas, I did not anticipate the response. I thought surely I had executed a clear explanation of reason. It was not accepted, and I was sharply rebuked. Ouch. More emails. Oh, no…wait stop…more words.


Dear God, Help me use my pause button. I realize now that it has a twofold purpose, and I’m so thankful you gave it to me.

When people send me ugly words or say ugly things towards me, help me to pause. Help me breathe before the sting of their poison sinks in. Instead let me wrap myself in the shield of your love and protect myself from their mistaken choice of message. Let my response redirect them and bring about relationship verses confrontation.

And also, when tempted to speak or write first, please Lord, please help me to pause. Please help me to recognize the power of my words. Help me remember my sweetpea and her realization that words do hurt. Help me to choose them wisely and help me to understand what words to share with others and which words to keep to myself.


Forgive me. I know I will fail time and time again to live fully into these requests. But God, help me be strong in my attempt and send me those gentle (and not so gentle) reminders. I am ever thankful for your presence and guidance.


With love and light,
LT